I can't help but look at the cross first, the greatest love in history! Died and bled to be with me, Jesus is my faithful King! He will always remain my first love, so it makes sense to think of Christ first when I think of love. Without Him, I would know nothing of love.
I can't help but to think of my parents, who have so graciously loved me throughout all my years (shoulda seen me in my hoodrat years... they had so much grace!). But not only that, I am so thankful for how they support and encourage my dreams. I never thought I would be where I am at in life right now. I never thought I would be working full time for a missionary ministry and also leading short term trips to Haiti every 4 months. It is my dream come true and I couldn't have done it without their support, and I am so thankful that they let me pursue my dreams and my passions.
I can't help but think about my friends and community, who are always there for me and bring such immense joy to my life. Thank you for simply being my friend. Words can't describe how much I cherish your friendship.
I can't help but think of my kiddos in Haiti, who I have the strangest bond with... like they are truly my own. I love them with a fierce love that I never knew I had in me. I imagine this is what one would call, a mother's love.
I can't help but think of Barre3. As cheasy as it may sound, Barre3 has given me the opportunity to grow in my health and myself. I have been able to connect with other women and been given the resources and tools to live a healthier life not only physically but also emotionally and spiritually. My energy, health, and excitement has gone up since I have been apart of the Barre3 community. Something that I thought would be just a 60-min total body workout (which it is) has turned into something so much more, and I am so thankful for Barre3.
And lastly, I can't help but think of myself. Something I have been noticing within Christianity is that to love yourself is often seen as "selfish" or "inward focused" and yes... you should not be obsessed with yourself or anything above Christ Jesus but I think we need to revisit our love for ourself. We often think pouring out and putting others first is a noble and Christ like thing to do, which it is. But if it is damaging yourself or the destiny or call the Lord has on your life, you need to check yourself. You need to make sure that you are living and acting and thinking the way you feel called to by the Lord and not by other people.
It is ok to love yourself, to think of yourself, and to do things for yourself. Lately I have been focused on myself a lot! I have been spending more time, money, and effort on eating healthy, exercising, and my own personal walk with the Lord. At first the enemy tried to shame me into thinking I wasn't "doing enough ministry" or that I was "being selfish for focusing on myself" but the Lord quickly showered His love on me and showed me that how I love myself and care for myself will manifest in how I love and care for others. How I love myself and care for myself will also show people that I respect myself and that they too should respect themselves.
Love who you are. Take time for yourself. You will be a better steward of many things once you have stewarded what the Lord has directly and blatantly given you, which is your body, your mind, your soul, your heart. Don't let anyone guilt you into feeling bad about it either. Of course, everything needs to be put in second place, Christ always is number 1, He always takes first place in our lives, thoughts, heart, and actions.
But I challenge you... the God of the universe made you in His image and so intricately wove you together with such thought, such delight, and such love. He placed every hair in its place, he fashioned your face, and your little toes. He so loved and continues to love who you are, do you?









